THE STRAIGHT STORY (reVISITed)

[Common thread in psychosis]

“Did you think you were Jesus?” – nurse
“No(Yes)”- me

Psychiatric Ward:

[What does the scale mean to you, as it pertains to what it means to me?]

Dr: “On a scale of 1-10, how do you feel ?”
Me:” What do you mean?”

Out of Ward:

[Common thread with mental illness is ceasing to take medication]

Back ‘n’ Ward:
[Give all the medication needed to cease the ideations.]

Ward:

[Judgement from nurse: Why did you stop taking your medication? This is not a joke]

Assigned Nurse visits: “They have given you too much Risperidol, it exceeds any amount within the limited range.”

Me: How does medication ‘solve’ my problems?

– continued to play with medication for years to come [Common thread from Mentally Ill patients- What is it good for? You feel better momentarily, so you start to believe you no longer need the medication or there are other alternatives – diet, supplements, exercise]

PEPP

[Common thread, mental illness only impacts low income people – Asians can have mental illness too]

Doctor: “You know University graduates have mental illness too”
Me: [Uh, I never said otherwise, why the hell you bringing  that up?]

PEPP

Doctor: “We are holding our annual charity event for Mental Health Care, can your parents by tickets to the fundraiser?”
Me:”Oh,they probably wouldn’t be interested in attending”
Doctor:”Why? It’s for a good cause. They can meet other people in the field and impacted by mental illness. It’s only $100”

HAPPY CLEANERS

Doctor appears at my parents business

I see him and walk out, ignoring him

[He was never a previous customer]

PEPP

Doctor: “Why do your parents not accept credit cards? BC they’re [cheap], it costs money?”
Doctor:”I only go to your parents dry cleaners because they are the best in the business, I wasn’t checking on you”

–

[Bing et Wife @ L’Acadie Cleaners, 2013] – last formal place of employment, full circle.

PEPP

Me:”I’m taking a trip to MTL. Can I get my prescription?”

Phone

Nurse:”There’s been an adjustment, take x amount of this, x amount of that”
Me:”OK”

MTL

Me:”Shit my vision is getting really blurry”
Me:”I better cut my trip short, bc I’m also out of money”

LO

Me:”I took the medication like this and was getting side effects”
Nurse:”No your prescription says this, you took the opposite amounts of what I told you to take”
Me:”No, you told me this”
Nurse:”No I did not, it says right here on the prescription”
Me:”Yes, you did”
Nurse:”No I didn’t. Why would I tell you otherwise?”

[Humans make mistakes. You listen to what you heard and trust it at times, instead of double checking your own prescription guidelines]

Me:”I came back also because I was broke” [Colloquial Speech]
Doctor:”You aren’t ‘broke’. You have money don’t you??? That does not mean you are broke, other people are broke.”
Me:[wtf]

PEPP

Visit…

Doctor:”Would you like to get an injection of Risperidol? It will be free and you won’t have to pay for your medication”
Me:”No thanks”

Next Visit…

Doctor:”You should try this injection, it’s for a trial of Risperidol”
Me: “No thanks”

Next Next Visit….

Doctor: “Are you scared of needles?”
Me: “No”
Doctor: “Why won’t you try this injection? What are you scared of?”
Me: “Uhm, I just don’t want to try trial injection of medication not approved”
Doctor:”Are you scared of needles?”
Me: [OMG STOP!!!!]

Years Later: Advertisment of Class Action Suit against Risperidol Injections

[2003]